Period

It's been 2 weeks since the date that I should have my period.. well.. so what?! hehe.. it's usually late time after time. Afterall, it's Ramadhan, hehe.. asik kan kagak batal puasanya.. Hmm.. but stil, i want to find out why. So I bough a pregnancy test toll kit (the cheap one, as i usually get my period soon as my urine been tested), and hey, surprise surprise, there was 2 stripes!! 2 stipes = pregnant! wow. not happy. not sad. just wow. i want to have a baby, but still don't have a courage to be a mother, mentally i am not ready. so, early in the morning we (me + my hubb) went to the mother & child hospital nearby our house. The doctor was late, 2 hours late! huh! kalo gw udah hamil tua udah berojol kali! Then, he took me to that usg thing, and said : "i couldn't see anything. its probably you are not pregnant, but i'm not sure. just come back here next month." That's it! huuuh!! betebetebete.. udah lama nunggunya, cuman dapet jawaban gituan! emangnya gw orang bodoh tolol ga ngerti kalo tes itu ga cuman usg doang?! dokter gila, ini kan bulan puasaaa.. if i am pregnant then i have to change my lifestyle including kagak ikut puasa! I felt so up set,dissapointed and gloomy, felt like loosing something special... hmmm.. maybe deep deep down inside, me myself is ready to be a mom ya?! then, i bough a test toolkit (the most expensive one) and test my urine early next morning. The result? + ...hey... oke deeeh.. berarti emang kudu ganti dokter kali yaaa.. so just now, i made a reservation to the well known hospital in jakarta, we'll see what the doctor sez.. uh..