Hell Meeting

Just came back from a 'hell meeting'.. and it is so relief knowing that i am the survival one...

Yup, facing this global economic crisis, everyone must do something in order to survive.. and one of the way is the so called efficiency; or in the other word is sacking the employees.... ugh.. For this purpose, any head division in my company must do the presentation bout his/her division - with extra details, in front of all the board; the almighty board.

And today is my time...
So.. I have to present all the jobs in my division, all the things that should been done, all my staff's doing.. all in details.. and the almighty board argued bout most of the things.. yeah, they did do their job very well..
Frankly, this meeting was the hardest meeting I've ever had...
I have no problem with public speaking, have no problem at all in even a hard discussion with those almighty people... but, this time is different coz it's not about myself nor my job.. it's about other people's life... I have to defend all my staff, considering their life, their family's life.... all my staff counted on me.. huah.. its burden me so much...

And then.. the judgement's time..
A unanimous decision from all the member of the board : i manage the division well, it considered effective & efficient. even more, I can propose an additional staff next year..

Whuaaah.... no one in my division would be in the termination list... thank god...

My English

I have so limited English. Yes, I can communicate in english.. but argh.. I'm not proud of my english.. it is so elementary...

Just come back from the last course for this month. The teacher said that I've made big progress.. But I have to work hard on the tiny-winy gramatical things and prepositions! hihihi...

Feel Good

I feel good bout myself. I knew it!!! I am capable. I can do my job well. I can handle these messy things to be fine. I can cope with the stress, evenmore, I handle the stress so well. Well, a bit narcisism wont harm.. hehe..

One of my staff is on leave, and I just find out her messy work.. She confirmed the unsecured account! It is a big-big-sin in my division. Nobody in the world would take 5Bio Rups short in a rush... And bad news : our securities lack of capacity. So, have to find others, while the time is running out!!!! 5Bio!! Whoooaaaaaa....

So, what I've done for the whole day was made phonecalls, lots of them... negotiate, negotiate, negotiate.............. being declined first.. being declined second... and just being declined.. fwuh.. but I keep on trying.. just like Dori at Finding Nemo 'keeeeep swimming.. keeep swimming...' And juusst about in time, a confirmation of acceptance comes.... AAAAAHHH...... the one who keep declining from the very beggining is consider to accept my offer... HIP HIP HURRAAAAY....

Yes, I have secured this one. This difficult-big account.
I have negotiated with seniors..
I did it...
Without being harsh to my staff..
Without being such a bitch..

When I was a staff, I've been suffered by my boss'despicable words while such same case happened..
I hate a kind of rude-stress boss...
Well, I do better than my former boss.. I can handle this work without hurting anybody's feeling...
Hmm.. I am a good boss.. hehehehe...

Thank you God...

PUSIIINNGGG!!!

Ampuun.. pusiiiiingggg deeeeeh...
Kenapa sih banyak kerjaan muncul secara bersamaan?? Udah gitu kebanyakan yang perlu pemikiran.. padahal udah susah cari waktu untuk bisa berpikir tenang & jernih setelah banyak waktu yang harus dibuang untuk kerjaan rutin2 ini???
Kenapa sih munculnya bersamaan juga dengan problem2 non teknis yang menyebalkan ini?? Yang menguras emosi bener..
Rasanya 24 jam sehari ga cukup...
12 jam sejari di kantor juga udah ga cukup lagi..
Huwaaaaaaa.....

tenang.. tenang.. tenanggggg.... *menenangkan diri sendiri*

kayaknya perlu suplemen ginko biloba.. eh engga suplemen super woman... kayaknya itu lebih oke..

huh..
mari berpikir...